Hermit...Anxiety Girl.

Maybe I just have issues, but some days I seriously wish I could just be hermit-like with my little family.  I put up walls for a reason, sometimes I let them down and really let myself out for people to see my crazy weirdo retardo side and then people just rub me the wrong way or maybe it's just a bit of anxiety, I don't know.  I just get weirded out by things people do or say to me and perhaps I over analyze it way too much but I feel like I have to put those walls right back up.  I feel like it's my way of not letting things hurt me or people I guess.   I don't know, I know I'm being silly probably and everything will be fine but I hate when I feel this knot in my stomach like this....  just makes me wanna hide in a corner because I don't know what to expect.  ----> I understand this is post is just a bunch of craziessss and it makes NOOOO sense what so ever, I just felt the need to BLARG.